My sweet Ella Grace is the reason why I gave my blog the title, "Some of the Best Things in Life are Mistakes." Getting pregnant with Ella was a mistake. I know some of you cringed when you read that, but it is true. She wasn't planned and was a complete and total surprise, a shocker!! She was the best mistake I ever made!!
Some people have "ooops" pregnancies or unplanned pregnancies but my pregnancy with Ella was nothing short of a miracle. After having my son Lucas, I had a tube tying procedure as a permanent form of birth control. It was advertised as being 99.9% effective. Well, we were the .1%. The procedure failed.
I had difficult pregnancies. No, difficult isn't a strong enough word- atrocious, terrible, horrendous. I had a condition called Hyperemesis Graviderum. It is very rare and most people haven't heard of it until recently when Princess Kate was diagnosed with it. It is a severe form of nausea and vomiting during pregnancy. I lost 20% of my body weight and fought dehydration the entire time. I was in and out of the hospital dozens of times during my pregnancies. So after having Lucas we decided that I would have my tubes tied. My body could not go through that again.
God had other plans. Needless to say, I was in shock when I discovered that I was pregnant 7 months after having my tubes tied. My son Lucas was just 9 months old. I was depressed as well as shocked. I cried for days. I could not imagine being pregnant again so soon after having my son. How would I take care of a baby while vomiting all day. In my misery, I prayed for a miscarriage. I didn't know what to do.
God was in control! I trusted Him and the pregnancy continued. My husband Aaron was so supportive and knew that this baby was a blessing. It was more difficult than the other two pregnancies. I lost so much weight that my baby stopped gaining weight. The doctors decided to induce her at 36 weeks so that she would have a chance to grow.
Ella Grace was such a sweet little baby. She was a peanut leaving the hospital at just 5 pounds. I looked at her and knew that every bit of the suffering was worth it. The mistake was a blessing.
Little did I know holding that little baby that she would save my life. In that picture above, I did not know that I had breast cancer. I was 37 years old and had no breast cancer in my family history but I had breast cancer. At this young age, I would not have had a mammogram for many years and I would not have had another breast exam for at least a year. Six weeks after having Ella I went to my OBGYN for my postpartum checkup and the lump was discovered. It was discovered that early because of Ella!
The cancer was removed, a full hysterectomy performed and radiation administered. I am cancer free. The Lord knew back in the Summer of 2011 when I got pregnant that this baby would save my life. I spent that summer wondering why the Lord would allow me to be pregnant and it took a year but the Lord answered me loud and clear.
I learned that I need to trust God in all situations no matter how difficult they may be. Ella is a constant reminder that God loves us and that He is in control.
|Ella Grace and me on her 3rd Birthday (March 2015)|